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I'll do more cohesive logs in the near future. As for now, I won't drop much on any poor poor reader. I'm going to the hospital tomorrow for my sleep problems and I'm a little bit stressed for school. I moved houses almost last year and although I went through freshmen year in this new school, coincidentally most of my friends moved? It's too much for my tired fingers to complain about at 6:55am but sophomore year will feel like I'm going to a new school again. I was pretty popular in my old school you know! Mostly because I was there for years but generally it didn't feel divided, there wasn't a distinguished understanding of the "popular friend group" on the contrary of the "weird friend group", it was always a unique set of people hanging around each other and it felt so much more accepting. So accepting that I became able to adjust to different types of people and for that I am grateful to my old school. Here, partly by my own accord I am very boring. I like to wear a black shirt and sweatpants, keeping to myself until I know I should socialize, where I then act not insincerely but hesitantly such that nobody would guess I'm the type of person to write on here right now. Let alone guess I'm the type of person to like what I like. That brings me back to the sleep thing. It's really on and off the past two weeks, sort of unique since usually I sleep fine or I don't sleep at all, both going on for weeks on end. It's irritating me since I'm also sick right now! I have a sore throat and runny nose and a headache that I don't know has to do with me being sick or my sleep but who cares it's annoying. Hospital visit tomorrow it was meant solely for my insomnia but I just got sick so that's going to be a great conversation. I sound gloomy but I'm not, soon as I wake up in three hours I'm going to make a bagel, go to the hospital, and read read read. I need to finish The House in Fata Morgana! I'm going to head to zzz now goodnight zzz.